-Barnett R. Brickner
Devon
Saturday, August 27, 2011
For Better or For Worse
"Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but through being the right mate."
As Excited as I am to get married, I'm not going to lie, I'm also scared as hell. Even though I already live with Colby, getting married is going to be such a big transaction. I'm not scared because I think I'm making the wrong decision (which I'm not), I'm scared because there are SO many marriages that fail. I'm talking about people I do know, and people I don't. I wonder if people actually think about their vows before and even after they say them. FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE. Think about it. You are not only making a promise to your spouse, but to God as well. That is a big, BIG commitment. Its scary because in making these vows, you know there is going to be a "better" as well as a "worse". You are going into marriage knowing there will be some really bad, rough, horrible times. And yet you vow to stay with them, which is how it should be, but I can imagine how hard it must be. So many people just give up, surrender, and get out of the situation. How awful, and how heartbreaking! I'm not scared Colby and I will get a divorce one day, I'm scared for the rough times that are ahead. Laying in bed last night I was thinking of the traditional vows and it was the first time I actually fully comprehended what they were saying. We plan on writing our own vows anyway, but it still really made me think. I am going in to this scared for the "worse" times, but really excited about the "better". If that makes sense. It does to me, and thats really all that matters.
Devon
Devon
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Making This For Me
I think part of the reason I don't blog as much as I used to (even though that wasn't very much to begin with) is because I would usually post the link on facebook, which isn't bad at all, except I think when I do that I also filter my thought. As if I was writing to please other people than myself. So maybe every now and then I will post the link on facebook if I feel I wont be judged or offend anyone, but other than that I will mostly write for my own benefit, and if you follow me then great, I suppose I will write for you too.
School starts next week and I can't decide if I am excited about it or sad about it. Of course I'm sad summer is over, but I also have more to be sad about. When I am finished with this semester I will graduate, which is awesome, but it also means that (duh!) I am being pushed into the real world. Yes it is a part of life, with many open doors and opportunities, but it is also a lot of goodbyes. Goodbye to summer vacations, sleeping in, seeing friends on weekends (when we move) and so much more. Pretty much, goodbye to being.. for the most part, carefree. BUT, it is also a very exciting time. Because after I graduate I get married! Which you all know, so I wont write about that today. It is also exciting because it means I accomplished something that I have wanted for as long as I can remember, and that I have worked on for four and a half years! I wont have to wait tables if I don't want to anymore (but I probably will while I'm in grad school, just because it will be easier to go to school and work that way)! Getting my bachelors is just the first step though, I still have many hurdles to jump over. Does that analogy make sense? It does to me.
This has been a very relaxed summer, I didn't go on many trips, but I did go on one good one, to Cozumel! I'll post pictures in another blog when we get the ones from snorkeling developed.
Thats it for now, I have more to write about, believe it or not, but I will wait until next time when I tell you another future goal for myself: to write a book.
Devon
School starts next week and I can't decide if I am excited about it or sad about it. Of course I'm sad summer is over, but I also have more to be sad about. When I am finished with this semester I will graduate, which is awesome, but it also means that (duh!) I am being pushed into the real world. Yes it is a part of life, with many open doors and opportunities, but it is also a lot of goodbyes. Goodbye to summer vacations, sleeping in, seeing friends on weekends (when we move) and so much more. Pretty much, goodbye to being.. for the most part, carefree. BUT, it is also a very exciting time. Because after I graduate I get married! Which you all know, so I wont write about that today. It is also exciting because it means I accomplished something that I have wanted for as long as I can remember, and that I have worked on for four and a half years! I wont have to wait tables if I don't want to anymore (but I probably will while I'm in grad school, just because it will be easier to go to school and work that way)! Getting my bachelors is just the first step though, I still have many hurdles to jump over. Does that analogy make sense? It does to me.
This has been a very relaxed summer, I didn't go on many trips, but I did go on one good one, to Cozumel! I'll post pictures in another blog when we get the ones from snorkeling developed.
Thats it for now, I have more to write about, believe it or not, but I will wait until next time when I tell you another future goal for myself: to write a book.
Devon
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
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Wednesday, July 13, 2011
On My Mind
Who sucks at keeping up with this thing? I DO! I imagined during the summer I would blog more since I have more time, but I really don't spend that much time on the computer! Anyway, I'll try to be interesting and catch you up.
Out of everything that is going on the thing that I'm most excited about is that I GOT MY WEDDING DRESS!! Its perfect! I was lucky enough to get one that fits perfectly without having to be altered! Except get it shorter, but I think just about everyone has to get that part altered. But I just love love love it! Its hard not showing Colby because I show him everything I buy, but I'm not going to give in! He doesn't want to see it yet anyway, so that helps!
Also, I SOLD MY CAR! I got way more than I thought I would for it, thank goodness, so I'm paying off my credit card! Woohoo!! I haven't had that thing paid off since I got it (bad, I know).
Lets see, what else? Right now I'm currently mad at Obama or whoever is in charge of the Pell Grant for financial aid because I just found out that this semester I'm only going to get $400! Which REALLY sucks! I usually get over $2000, so this is a big big change. I guess I got lucky though because this semester I'll only need to take two classes, so I wont be out too much. But still. Hopefully I'll get a scholarship from my mom's work again and wont have to be out anything! Lets hope!
Now, on to more personal thoughts! I know I blog a lot about my friends, but they are a big part of my life and I like writing about them! I seriously have amazing friends and BRIDESMAIDS! They are helping me with wedding stuff SO MUCH! I would be a lost little puppy without them! But, with the good always comes the bad. I have some "friends" who really aren't friends at all. I just don't understand some people. If I don't like you, then I wont be your friend or act like it. Its the only reasonable thing to do. So why do some people claim to be your friend, but in all reality don't like you at all? Its just dumb. MAN UP. Its annoying, and very immature. Bitching about this may also seem petty, but see how you feel when you find out the things that I have. Getting this off my chest really helps me put things into perspective. I seriously do more than I should for some people, and in return I get nothing. I waste my time and my money, which really pisses me off. So not only am I hurt, I am angry as well. So thats that. I will take the good friends I do have, and discard the bad.
End rant.
OH OH OH! I can't believe I forgot! Colby's dad is being so generous by taking us and his brother, Hunter, on a vacation! And by vacation I don't mean the lake, I mean a week stay at an all-inclusive resort! We're looking into places, and right now it seems it will be Cozumel. I'm so excited!! I've never been to a resort or a tropical area so I'm so stocked! I'm sure Colby is tired of me asking him questions on if we've booked it yet! We're going in the beginning of August! I know Mexico isn't safe right now, but from what I've been told Cozumel is a safe enough area. I'll have three guys there to protect me though :)
I guess thats enough for now. There is more on my mind, but I feel like I've typed enough for today. I'll try not to suck so bad at this!
Devon
Out of everything that is going on the thing that I'm most excited about is that I GOT MY WEDDING DRESS!! Its perfect! I was lucky enough to get one that fits perfectly without having to be altered! Except get it shorter, but I think just about everyone has to get that part altered. But I just love love love it! Its hard not showing Colby because I show him everything I buy, but I'm not going to give in! He doesn't want to see it yet anyway, so that helps!
Also, I SOLD MY CAR! I got way more than I thought I would for it, thank goodness, so I'm paying off my credit card! Woohoo!! I haven't had that thing paid off since I got it (bad, I know).
Lets see, what else? Right now I'm currently mad at Obama or whoever is in charge of the Pell Grant for financial aid because I just found out that this semester I'm only going to get $400! Which REALLY sucks! I usually get over $2000, so this is a big big change. I guess I got lucky though because this semester I'll only need to take two classes, so I wont be out too much. But still. Hopefully I'll get a scholarship from my mom's work again and wont have to be out anything! Lets hope!
Now, on to more personal thoughts! I know I blog a lot about my friends, but they are a big part of my life and I like writing about them! I seriously have amazing friends and BRIDESMAIDS! They are helping me with wedding stuff SO MUCH! I would be a lost little puppy without them! But, with the good always comes the bad. I have some "friends" who really aren't friends at all. I just don't understand some people. If I don't like you, then I wont be your friend or act like it. Its the only reasonable thing to do. So why do some people claim to be your friend, but in all reality don't like you at all? Its just dumb. MAN UP. Its annoying, and very immature. Bitching about this may also seem petty, but see how you feel when you find out the things that I have. Getting this off my chest really helps me put things into perspective. I seriously do more than I should for some people, and in return I get nothing. I waste my time and my money, which really pisses me off. So not only am I hurt, I am angry as well. So thats that. I will take the good friends I do have, and discard the bad.
End rant.
OH OH OH! I can't believe I forgot! Colby's dad is being so generous by taking us and his brother, Hunter, on a vacation! And by vacation I don't mean the lake, I mean a week stay at an all-inclusive resort! We're looking into places, and right now it seems it will be Cozumel. I'm so excited!! I've never been to a resort or a tropical area so I'm so stocked! I'm sure Colby is tired of me asking him questions on if we've booked it yet! We're going in the beginning of August! I know Mexico isn't safe right now, but from what I've been told Cozumel is a safe enough area. I'll have three guys there to protect me though :)
I guess thats enough for now. There is more on my mind, but I feel like I've typed enough for today. I'll try not to suck so bad at this!
Devon
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Michelle..& other ramblings
Sometimes I read people's post and I think..."Wow, you CANNOT be writing this for you! You are totally trying to write this to seem articulate or smart (or "deep"..depends how you take it..) or something! I mean seriously, ANYONE can use a thesaurus!" Heck, I used shift f7 (which brings up a list of better words than your own) on the majority of my papers, giving me a slightly better vocabulary than the next person, who did not know my trick. But still! I understand people blog for their own reason, but SERIOUSLY!
That may seem so out of focus, but at least I didn't look up proper grammar online! Its sad I started my blog complaining, since that was not at all my intention, but I read someone's (who shall remain nameless) that just got my blood flowing! And honestly their blog had good grammar and all, it was just annoying. Yeah I'm speaking in a hateful matter, I realize that. But God will take that up with me, back off.
These days I find it SO hard to find sincere people. I know more than half (of you 11 followers..) agree. It sucks so bad that you have your best friend in high school and you think y'all will hang out (or at least talk) every day, but of course that doesn't happen. Then you make new friends, but none of them compare. Those of you who know me know exactly who I am talking about. Michelle.
I am SO mad at myself that we are not as close as I have always imagined we would be. I don't blame me, or her, but rather time and maturity. That is not to say one of us is more mature, because deep down I think we will always be the same in that aspect, but I seriously think it was the process of growing up and finding ourselves apart from one another that separated us, and made us into the women we are to become. But now there is NOTHING more that I want than to go back, or at least pick up, where we left off. It is a scary thing, really. It is almost like establishing a new friendship, because we have missed so much! Wouldn't it be nice if we never even lost touch? And I don't think either one of us even realized it! If so, I think (and really, truly hope) that we would have put a stop to it. But that is enough of my whining and complaining, wishing and dwelling on the past. I am on to bigger and better things. Getting my best friend back, and living the life I have ALWAYS wanted...and deserved. I don't want my friends now who are reading this to become upset or hurt with my sudden need for having Michelle back in my life. I don't want them thinking they are not good enough, because my friends now are WONDERFUL friends, but lets face it, no one can compare to the person God put on this Earth for you (and their family...yada yada). We all have that one person. Again, that may seem wrong, all I mean to say is...I have THE perfect puzzle, my friends now offer me more than I could ever want and I am eternally grateful, and always always always want them in my life, but I am missing one piece, Michelle. So please, don't be angry or hurt, or judgmental. Just be understanding of a girl who really misses her best friend.
Devon
That may seem so out of focus, but at least I didn't look up proper grammar online! Its sad I started my blog complaining, since that was not at all my intention, but I read someone's (who shall remain nameless) that just got my blood flowing! And honestly their blog had good grammar and all, it was just annoying. Yeah I'm speaking in a hateful matter, I realize that. But God will take that up with me, back off.
These days I find it SO hard to find sincere people. I know more than half (of you 11 followers..) agree. It sucks so bad that you have your best friend in high school and you think y'all will hang out (or at least talk) every day, but of course that doesn't happen. Then you make new friends, but none of them compare. Those of you who know me know exactly who I am talking about. Michelle.
I am SO mad at myself that we are not as close as I have always imagined we would be. I don't blame me, or her, but rather time and maturity. That is not to say one of us is more mature, because deep down I think we will always be the same in that aspect, but I seriously think it was the process of growing up and finding ourselves apart from one another that separated us, and made us into the women we are to become. But now there is NOTHING more that I want than to go back, or at least pick up, where we left off. It is a scary thing, really. It is almost like establishing a new friendship, because we have missed so much! Wouldn't it be nice if we never even lost touch? And I don't think either one of us even realized it! If so, I think (and really, truly hope) that we would have put a stop to it. But that is enough of my whining and complaining, wishing and dwelling on the past. I am on to bigger and better things. Getting my best friend back, and living the life I have ALWAYS wanted...and deserved. I don't want my friends now who are reading this to become upset or hurt with my sudden need for having Michelle back in my life. I don't want them thinking they are not good enough, because my friends now are WONDERFUL friends, but lets face it, no one can compare to the person God put on this Earth for you (and their family...yada yada). We all have that one person. Again, that may seem wrong, all I mean to say is...I have THE perfect puzzle, my friends now offer me more than I could ever want and I am eternally grateful, and always always always want them in my life, but I am missing one piece, Michelle. So please, don't be angry or hurt, or judgmental. Just be understanding of a girl who really misses her best friend.
Devon
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Just Some Thoughts
Something I'm not sure I'll ever understand is how people can be so mean. I'm not saying I'm the nicest person in the world, and I'm not saying I don't have my days, but some people are just downright mean. I'm talking deliberate, hateful, hurtful, MEAN. Don't misunderstand and think someone is "bullying" me or whatever, this was just something that crossed my mind last night. I just don't get it. Here we are, young adults (or are we adults? What makes you an adult?), and some of us act like we are still in high school and get joy out of other people's pain. I know I've said some mean things to people and have been rude, but geez, some people take it to the extreme! I feel so bad for people who are victims of bullying, it really is so unfortunate. And half the time the people who are so hurtful have NOTHING going for them! Is it jealousy? Lack of an education? All I know is I will raise my kids better than that.
Another thing that has been on my mind lately is how fast life changes. Not just growing and aging, but how you can be on the road to going somewhere and then one life changing event happens and you take a left turn instead of right. And its just so crazy because you were never planning on going in that direction, but before you know it, you're already almost there. I'm speaking figuratively (or metaphorically?..literally? Not real sure that correct wording here) if you couldn't tell, but hopefully you catch my drift. It is just hard to wrap my mind around. We really have no control at all, and I don't think we think about life that way. We want to have control. Of our lives, our relationships, career choices..everything. But WE HAVE NONE. Some of you may be thinking DUH Devon, God does, well YES I know that, but I oftentimes let that fact slip my mind. Yeah I want to graduate, get married, move, have a family, so on and so forth..but if God doesn't want me to, then I wont! This is really cliche' what I'm about to say, but we really need to cherish the moment. We may think we have what we want right now, but in ten years are we going to be able to look back and honestly say we did exactly what we wanted to? Or did God intervene somewhere and put us where He wanted us. Just some thoughts.
Devon
Another thing that has been on my mind lately is how fast life changes. Not just growing and aging, but how you can be on the road to going somewhere and then one life changing event happens and you take a left turn instead of right. And its just so crazy because you were never planning on going in that direction, but before you know it, you're already almost there. I'm speaking figuratively (or metaphorically?..literally? Not real sure that correct wording here) if you couldn't tell, but hopefully you catch my drift. It is just hard to wrap my mind around. We really have no control at all, and I don't think we think about life that way. We want to have control. Of our lives, our relationships, career choices..everything. But WE HAVE NONE. Some of you may be thinking DUH Devon, God does, well YES I know that, but I oftentimes let that fact slip my mind. Yeah I want to graduate, get married, move, have a family, so on and so forth..but if God doesn't want me to, then I wont! This is really cliche' what I'm about to say, but we really need to cherish the moment. We may think we have what we want right now, but in ten years are we going to be able to look back and honestly say we did exactly what we wanted to? Or did God intervene somewhere and put us where He wanted us. Just some thoughts.
Devon
Friday, April 22, 2011
One of those days
Today sucks. I'm normally not one to be pessimistic, but geez. I don't feel like things will get better today. First thing when I wake up is check my email and see somehow I overdrafted and it took $178 from my credit card. So I get online and see one of my credit cards charged me twice! I normally pay $400 a month, so they took $800 from my account! $800 I didn't have. $800 I was planning on spending on something else (technically it was only the other $400 that I'm mad about) AND that makes me credit card balance go up even more! ARRGH. The card company told me there was nothing they could do, if I want the money back I have to call the bank and tell them to stop the payment or something like that. I was going to do that, but instead I'm just going to let it be. That way instead of paying $400 a month until February I'll only be paying $330. Thats about the only good thing that came from that fiasco. Then I had to go to Odessa for my 6 week check up and I got lost! I got lost in stupid ugly Odessa. I know I go there every day, but I'm never in that part of town. I hate Odessa. To top it off, I think my stupid eye doctor got my prescription wrong and my left contact is super blurry. This didn't happen today, its been like this, but because everything else has gone wrong its even more annoying. I work in an hour and I pray my night doesn't suck. I obviously need the money even more now, and just do not feel like dealing with anything else negative. I'm just ready to get this day over with.
Sorry for the vent. I get annoyed when people complain all the time, so I understand this could be annoying. But I just had to get it out there.
Devon
Sorry for the vent. I get annoyed when people complain all the time, so I understand this could be annoying. But I just had to get it out there.
Devon
Friday, April 15, 2011
I can never think of a good title
Well there I go again, not blogging for a while. Its hard though when I'm super busy and have nothing interesting to write about though. I can't believe school will be out in three weeks! Time has just flown by. After this semester I'll only need FIVE more hours to graduate! Thats TWO classes! My fall semester is going to be a breeze. Minus the fact I'll be doing my independent research, but I would rather not think about that right now. What I would like to think about is what I'm going to wear to Colby's graduation! I'm so proud of him, whenever we very first started dating when I was 17 he was the typical guy who didn't have any kind of ambition (that he showed to me, at least). If I remember correctly he was going to Midland College, but then stopped going to work in the oil field. I'm not 100% sure if thats accurate but I think so? Anyway, now he is the most motivated and ambitious person I know. I can't wait to see what he does with himself. As for me, I can't wait to get my career started either! Except even after I graduate I'll still have about three and a half more years. Another thing I would rather not think about right now. My birthday is coming up in about two months, I'll be 22. Weird. I couldn't wait to be 21, but I would rather not be 22. I know its not old, but its oldER. The only comfort I have in getting older is knowing I'm going to have great skin and be healthy since I take good care of myself now. Take that, aging process. Speaking of birthdays, our puppy Lillie is one year old today!!! She is still tiny though, I love her. Well, thats about it!
Devon
Devon
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
This & That
Even though school started back up just yesterday, I am SUPER busy! However, I do have enough time for a quickie blog post.
I don't know why I was thinking about this the other night, but I am extremely grateful Colby is not in the Army, Military, etc. Its not that I don't appreciate what those men do for us, because I definitely do, I'm just glad Colby isn't one of those guys. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it is for women out there who never know where their husbands are and don't know when they'll even get a chance to talk to them again. That takes a special kind of courage that no one wants to have to possess. And imagine if the women had children- how hard that would be! Half of the time it would be as if you weren't even married at all! I'm just so blessed that I have a fiance' that I get to be with everyday. Other women are blessed to be able to say "My husband is the reason you have freedom."
The other night I had such a crazy vivid dream about our wedding. I'm not going to go into detail, but it was quite the wedding! When I woke up and got to thinking about it, I realized that even though it is in January, its coming up so fast! And I CAN NOT wait!! Sometimes just thinking about it brings a tear to my eye, but just about anything and everything does that! Not only can I not wait for our wedding, I can't wait for our marriage either. Mrs. Pierce. I must say, when I write it in cursive my soon-to-be new name looks pretty snazzy. I'm so lucky to have found the person God made specifically for me. These days people throw marriage and love around like its replaceable. And although divorce and remarriage are options, we should not think like that. People need to go into marriage thinking "This is it" and not "If it doesn't work out, life goes on." I'm proud to say Colby is the only man I have loved, and the only man I will love. In a romantic way of course.
I wish I had more to write about than Colby today, but the only other thing occupying my mind right now is how much school work I have, & you don't want to hear about that.
Devon
I don't know why I was thinking about this the other night, but I am extremely grateful Colby is not in the Army, Military, etc. Its not that I don't appreciate what those men do for us, because I definitely do, I'm just glad Colby isn't one of those guys. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it is for women out there who never know where their husbands are and don't know when they'll even get a chance to talk to them again. That takes a special kind of courage that no one wants to have to possess. And imagine if the women had children- how hard that would be! Half of the time it would be as if you weren't even married at all! I'm just so blessed that I have a fiance' that I get to be with everyday. Other women are blessed to be able to say "My husband is the reason you have freedom."
The other night I had such a crazy vivid dream about our wedding. I'm not going to go into detail, but it was quite the wedding! When I woke up and got to thinking about it, I realized that even though it is in January, its coming up so fast! And I CAN NOT wait!! Sometimes just thinking about it brings a tear to my eye, but just about anything and everything does that! Not only can I not wait for our wedding, I can't wait for our marriage either. Mrs. Pierce. I must say, when I write it in cursive my soon-to-be new name looks pretty snazzy. I'm so lucky to have found the person God made specifically for me. These days people throw marriage and love around like its replaceable. And although divorce and remarriage are options, we should not think like that. People need to go into marriage thinking "This is it" and not "If it doesn't work out, life goes on." I'm proud to say Colby is the only man I have loved, and the only man I will love. In a romantic way of course.
I wish I had more to write about than Colby today, but the only other thing occupying my mind right now is how much school work I have, & you don't want to hear about that.
Devon
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Spring Break
This has been the most uneventful, lazy, boring spring break of my life. I'm glad I had the time to recover, but OH MY GOSH! I'm bored out of my mind every day. I did get out today for a little shopping, but thats the extent of my break. Next year my HUSBAND and I are going to Padre, I've already decided, even if we have real jobs. Well, hopefully we can.
I got a certificate for a shoe store I love so I ordered another pair of extremely cute shoes!!
I've always liked shoes, but I think I've just started to become a shoe fanatic, years after everybody else. I even got a new pair of pink bowling shoes!! Those were more of an investment though. As much as Colby and I like to bowl we were spending way too much on renting shoes, so we both just bought a pair. Can't wait until I'm allowed to pick up heavy things again and go bowl!
Devon
I got a certificate for a shoe store I love so I ordered another pair of extremely cute shoes!!
I've always liked shoes, but I think I've just started to become a shoe fanatic, years after everybody else. I even got a new pair of pink bowling shoes!! Those were more of an investment though. As much as Colby and I like to bowl we were spending way too much on renting shoes, so we both just bought a pair. Can't wait until I'm allowed to pick up heavy things again and go bowl!
Devon
Monday, March 14, 2011
Beauty Is Pain
Well, the hard part is done and over with! I must admit, getting a breast augmentation is much more painful than I thought it would be. The day of when I came home I was pretty much drugged up and don't remember much so I was managing the pain just fine. However, the second day was awful. Even with the pain pills I was still uncomfortable. If I was laying down I couldn't get myself up. Colby had to wash my hair for me and help me dress. He was such a big help, I don't know what I would have done without him. It was pretty much the same for the next few days. Today was the first day I didn't have to take any pain pills, until about an hour ago. I still have a hard time lifting anything too heavy and raising my arms, but thats what was expected. Pain and all, I would have to say it was worth it.
Other than that, nothing else is new. I'm so glad its spring break because I have quite a bit of homework/studying and plenty of time to do it! I must say though, I have been going stir crazy! I don't think I could stay home all day every day. If I was going to not work, I would need to have kids to keep me company! Otherwise I think I would go shopping every day. I can't wait until I can drive again so I can go do something!
Thats it!
Devon
Other than that, nothing else is new. I'm so glad its spring break because I have quite a bit of homework/studying and plenty of time to do it! I must say though, I have been going stir crazy! I don't think I could stay home all day every day. If I was going to not work, I would need to have kids to keep me company! Otherwise I think I would go shopping every day. I can't wait until I can drive again so I can go do something!
Thats it!
Devon
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
The Big Day
The big day is fast approaching, and by fast approaching I mean 14 hours! It sort of feels unreal. The nervousness kind of reminds me of when I was about to get my tattoo. I knew it was going to be painful, I just chose not to think about it. And that is exactly what I am doing now, not thinking about it. Except now even when I don't think about it the thought is still lingering in the back of my mind. The nurse called me today to talk about my medication and went over the procedure and answered some questions so that put me a little at ease. I'm just ready to get it over with that way I don't have to wait anymore! I finally told my Grandma, who I thought would be really upset with me, but she just laughed! It was such a relief.
Anyway, keep me and my family in your prayers, they'll need peace (especially my mom). I'll write again once I'm feeling up to it!
Until then..
Devon
Anyway, keep me and my family in your prayers, they'll need peace (especially my mom). I'll write again once I'm feeling up to it!
Until then..
Devon
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Just Rambling On
Times like these make me wonder why I even started a blog, I literally have NO time to keep up with it! I don't even have time to read my Cosmo! Thank goodness spring break is in a week and a half! My time will be spent recovering from my surgery that is NEXT WEEK! I'm so excited/anxious/nervous!! I had to get blood work done the other day and that alone freaked me out. So I'm sure as the day gets close I'm going to be a big ball of nerves. I'm really excited about the overall results thought. I've known I was going to do this since high school, I just can't believe I'm actually making it happen. I am not looking forward to hearing the reactions from my family though. I know some will be understanding, but not most. Most will be judgmental and turn their noses, but God will judge them in the same way they judge me so I shouldn't worry about it.
Speaking of God, we haven't been to church in three weeks!! I hate it! I feel like I'm missing out on learning. We were out of town one weekend so I couldn't help that, but the other two times we just overslept. We are going this Sunday though, so that makes me feel better.
Thats about it.
Speaking of God, we haven't been to church in three weeks!! I hate it! I feel like I'm missing out on learning. We were out of town one weekend so I couldn't help that, but the other two times we just overslept. We are going this Sunday though, so that makes me feel better.
Thats about it.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Love
I bet most of you reading this thought since the title of this blog is love, then I'm going to be gushing on how much I love Colby, right? Wrong. While I do love him, I decided to blog about my love of cooking!
For dinner I made a Balsamic Honey Chicken and it was amazing! The chicken wasn't dry and the flavor was so good! I'm wrestling with the decision of posting my recipes or not! I don't really want people to have them because I want to eventually make a secret family recipe book, but at the same time I want everyone to taste the goodness! My selfish side comes out when it comes to food.
Last night I also made a flavorful healthy dish, Parmesan Broiled Tilapia! Yummy! I have cooked healthy EVERY night this week! I can definitely feel it too! I just feel so...GOOD! And my tummy has gotten flatter, which is a plus no matter what size you are.
I wish I had taken pictures of my dinner to show you, but by the time I thought of it I was already halfway done. But to reward myself I bought a SUPER cute pair of shoes! I can't wait until they get here, I'm already thinking of what outfits to wear with them!
I have no idea where I got my love of cooking. I used to bake with my Grandma when I was younger, but never cook meals. I wish I didn't have school or work that way I could just go to the grocery store and cook every night, but maybe here in the next 10 years. Enough of the cooking talk.
I've recently started watching Brothers&Sisters on Netflix, starting on the first season, and I must say, LOVE it! I don't know why I never watched it before! If you're Netflix addicts like me, then I recommend it.
I've also been doing really well in school this semester. I always make good grades, but this semester especially. I've gotten an A on every test I've taken except for one, and on that one in particular I got a B. So on that note, its time to study and watch Greys. Great great day.
Devon
For dinner I made a Balsamic Honey Chicken and it was amazing! The chicken wasn't dry and the flavor was so good! I'm wrestling with the decision of posting my recipes or not! I don't really want people to have them because I want to eventually make a secret family recipe book, but at the same time I want everyone to taste the goodness! My selfish side comes out when it comes to food.
Last night I also made a flavorful healthy dish, Parmesan Broiled Tilapia! Yummy! I have cooked healthy EVERY night this week! I can definitely feel it too! I just feel so...GOOD! And my tummy has gotten flatter, which is a plus no matter what size you are.
I wish I had taken pictures of my dinner to show you, but by the time I thought of it I was already halfway done. But to reward myself I bought a SUPER cute pair of shoes! I can't wait until they get here, I'm already thinking of what outfits to wear with them!
I have no idea where I got my love of cooking. I used to bake with my Grandma when I was younger, but never cook meals. I wish I didn't have school or work that way I could just go to the grocery store and cook every night, but maybe here in the next 10 years. Enough of the cooking talk.
I've recently started watching Brothers&Sisters on Netflix, starting on the first season, and I must say, LOVE it! I don't know why I never watched it before! If you're Netflix addicts like me, then I recommend it.
I've also been doing really well in school this semester. I always make good grades, but this semester especially. I've gotten an A on every test I've taken except for one, and on that one in particular I got a B. So on that note, its time to study and watch Greys. Great great day.
Devon
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Nothing of Importance
This weekend, Saturday really, was fantastic! I got to spend the day with my best friends getting Sarah's bridesmaid dresses and having lunch. Then that night Colby drove down there and we got to go out and experience college life in an actual college city, Lubbock. It was nothing special, just good times with my best friends.
Anyway, the reason I am writing this is because I am precrastining writing a tedious APA lab report. I have one section done out of five, and each takes me about an hour. It wouldn't take me that long if only I were motivated! My motivation is gone for the semester it seems. All I can think about are bills, wedding planning, and my surgery on the 10th! I'm so anxious!
Sorry this blog is boring, and most likely the most pointless of them all, but procrastination is consuming me right now.
Devon
Anyway, the reason I am writing this is because I am precrastining writing a tedious APA lab report. I have one section done out of five, and each takes me about an hour. It wouldn't take me that long if only I were motivated! My motivation is gone for the semester it seems. All I can think about are bills, wedding planning, and my surgery on the 10th! I'm so anxious!
Sorry this blog is boring, and most likely the most pointless of them all, but procrastination is consuming me right now.
Devon
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
A Tribute to my Friends
What a beautiful day today! A little odd for February, but I'm not complaining! I just finished taking a test for my most difficult course and I actually think I did okay! Probably not an "A" but I definitely wasn't expecting one anyway!
This week I've been thinking alot about friendship. Good friends really are hard to find, cliche' I know. I probably have a handful of friends who I hold dear to my heart and I honestly wouldn't have it any other way. Though we don't live in the same town anymore (most of us, anyway) I feel we're as close as we can be in our situations. I see alot of people who barely talk to their highschool friends and I feel so bad for them, and at the same time so grateful for myself. I don't think many people have what I have with my friends. I do have other friends who aren't as close with me as my highschool girlfriends, but those relationships aren't the same. I am so blessed to have friends who deeply know me and understand me and most of all, don't judge me. I can't stress enough how hard it is to have good friends, great friends really, and how I somehow am lucky enough to have just enough of them. I really believe we will all stay in touch throughout the years as we start our own lives as wives, mothers, careerwomen, or whatever path we choose for ourselves. I know it hard for us all to get together when we live so far apart, Cayla especially, but it still means everything in the World to know I have girls who are there for me 24/7 no matter how far away or what time zone they're in. So, if any of y'all are reading this, you know who y'all are, thanks so much for being such beautiful friends. I love y'all!!
Devon
This week I've been thinking alot about friendship. Good friends really are hard to find, cliche' I know. I probably have a handful of friends who I hold dear to my heart and I honestly wouldn't have it any other way. Though we don't live in the same town anymore (most of us, anyway) I feel we're as close as we can be in our situations. I see alot of people who barely talk to their highschool friends and I feel so bad for them, and at the same time so grateful for myself. I don't think many people have what I have with my friends. I do have other friends who aren't as close with me as my highschool girlfriends, but those relationships aren't the same. I am so blessed to have friends who deeply know me and understand me and most of all, don't judge me. I can't stress enough how hard it is to have good friends, great friends really, and how I somehow am lucky enough to have just enough of them. I really believe we will all stay in touch throughout the years as we start our own lives as wives, mothers, careerwomen, or whatever path we choose for ourselves. I know it hard for us all to get together when we live so far apart, Cayla especially, but it still means everything in the World to know I have girls who are there for me 24/7 no matter how far away or what time zone they're in. So, if any of y'all are reading this, you know who y'all are, thanks so much for being such beautiful friends. I love y'all!!
Devon
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's Day
Valentine's Day.
Now before I state my opinion, let me start by saying I enjoy Valentine's Day very much, always have and always will. However, some people make way too big of a deal about it. I love gifts, but I think it is ridiculous to spend alot of money on someone just because the calendar tells you to. I got Colby something and he got me something, but nothing along the lines of diamons or the equivalent. I know its a day to celebrate the one you love, but how is that unique if everyone is doing the same thing? In my opinion, anniversarys should be put on a much higher pedestal. At least that date is special for you and you alone. Like I said, I love Valentine's Day and I love the sweet things Colby does for me on this Hallmark Holiday, but some of y'all are just plain crazy!
Anyway. I got my grade back from my first exam! Drumroll please......97!!!! I work so hard to get the grades I do and I definitely take pride in my schoolwork, its just good to know my hours of studying every week pays off! I also got an "A" on my second exam :)
This weekend can not get here fast enough! I'm going to Lubbock to get fitted for a good friend of mines bridesmaid dress and I get to see some of my best girlfriends! I'm staying there overnight and I absolutely can't wait! I don't get to see them enough, so so so excited!
Well, my teacher decided to give a test the day after Valentine's Day, so my date tonight will be my books. See ya!
Devon
Now before I state my opinion, let me start by saying I enjoy Valentine's Day very much, always have and always will. However, some people make way too big of a deal about it. I love gifts, but I think it is ridiculous to spend alot of money on someone just because the calendar tells you to. I got Colby something and he got me something, but nothing along the lines of diamons or the equivalent. I know its a day to celebrate the one you love, but how is that unique if everyone is doing the same thing? In my opinion, anniversarys should be put on a much higher pedestal. At least that date is special for you and you alone. Like I said, I love Valentine's Day and I love the sweet things Colby does for me on this Hallmark Holiday, but some of y'all are just plain crazy!
Anyway. I got my grade back from my first exam! Drumroll please......97!!!! I work so hard to get the grades I do and I definitely take pride in my schoolwork, its just good to know my hours of studying every week pays off! I also got an "A" on my second exam :)
This weekend can not get here fast enough! I'm going to Lubbock to get fitted for a good friend of mines bridesmaid dress and I get to see some of my best girlfriends! I'm staying there overnight and I absolutely can't wait! I don't get to see them enough, so so so excited!
Well, my teacher decided to give a test the day after Valentine's Day, so my date tonight will be my books. See ya!
Devon
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Just Another Day
Well I must say I am in a very good mood today, but that is not uncommon for me. Nothing special has happened, other than the fact that I just ACED my Adult Development exam.
I haven't blogged in what feels like a while, even though its only been about a week. But there really hasn't been anything blog worthy! Colby and I have been going to church for the past three weeks (and if you know me, I am NOT the best at waking up when I don't have to) and I love it! Last Sunday was communion, which of course is my favorite Sunday of the month, and the service was the best one so far. I'm so excited to learn about what God wants me to do with my life. The Sunday before that I signed up to help with a rememberance service for September 11 and to help with a church event at the Rockhounds, this summer/fall needs to hurry! I REALLY wanted to help the church build a house, but I think the only thing I would be much help in is decorating or painting. So I opted to do something that I could actually help contribute.
I still haven't got my car back from the shop, which blows. Well, I technically got it back for a day but then had to send it back the next day. On the bright side, the guy smarted off and lied to my dad so we're getting $600 worth of work done on it for free. Thank you JESUS. I'm just glad I have good friends who have been taking me to school everyday. I'm a lucky lady.
I start the "shread" tonight! I was supposed to start last night, but I decided to study instead. Maybe if I commit to tracking my progress I will actually stick to it! Jillian Michaels, I'm ready!
Devon
I haven't blogged in what feels like a while, even though its only been about a week. But there really hasn't been anything blog worthy! Colby and I have been going to church for the past three weeks (and if you know me, I am NOT the best at waking up when I don't have to) and I love it! Last Sunday was communion, which of course is my favorite Sunday of the month, and the service was the best one so far. I'm so excited to learn about what God wants me to do with my life. The Sunday before that I signed up to help with a rememberance service for September 11 and to help with a church event at the Rockhounds, this summer/fall needs to hurry! I REALLY wanted to help the church build a house, but I think the only thing I would be much help in is decorating or painting. So I opted to do something that I could actually help contribute.
I still haven't got my car back from the shop, which blows. Well, I technically got it back for a day but then had to send it back the next day. On the bright side, the guy smarted off and lied to my dad so we're getting $600 worth of work done on it for free. Thank you JESUS. I'm just glad I have good friends who have been taking me to school everyday. I'm a lucky lady.
I start the "shread" tonight! I was supposed to start last night, but I decided to study instead. Maybe if I commit to tracking my progress I will actually stick to it! Jillian Michaels, I'm ready!
Devon
Monday, January 24, 2011
John 15:9-17
Well I've been kind of down today, but I'm pretty sure its just because I have the worst sinus headache ever! I normally hate complaining and I hate listening to people complain, but this just sucks! I was sick for two weeks, finally got better, and now its coming back! Really making me rethink getting married in January next year!! Its actually not, I just know to take plenty of vitamins next year to avoid this!
On a much, much happier note, today our friends Kaitlyn and Garrett found out they're having a baby GIRL! I am so happy for them! Babies are such a blessing, I love them. Even though Colby and I are going to wait a few years before we have kids, I can't wait until its time! I just would prefer to travel, be young, and have a steady income before I devote my life to cute little babies! Besides, I don't need kids when all of my friends have them, and I already pretty much have two (my dogs)! lol
Yesterday (Sunday) Colby and I went to church for the first time together! I hadn't been in years, and it had been even longer for him! I must say, it felt so right! We're planning on going regularly and joining a young couples Sunday school class! I know its what God wants me to do, and I love knowing I'm doing something right for him. Maybe one day I'll read the whole Bible and blog about it. You know, how I perceive certain passages and what I learn from them. I probably wont do that for a while though, at least until after I graduate.
Now, in case you're wondering why I made a scripture my "title" or what it even says (which I hope you are) I will now tell you :) My church has weekly scripture readings and this one was from last week, but when I read it, it really made me realize how we all need to change how we treat people!
9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other.
Love love love!
On a much, much happier note, today our friends Kaitlyn and Garrett found out they're having a baby GIRL! I am so happy for them! Babies are such a blessing, I love them. Even though Colby and I are going to wait a few years before we have kids, I can't wait until its time! I just would prefer to travel, be young, and have a steady income before I devote my life to cute little babies! Besides, I don't need kids when all of my friends have them, and I already pretty much have two (my dogs)! lol
Yesterday (Sunday) Colby and I went to church for the first time together! I hadn't been in years, and it had been even longer for him! I must say, it felt so right! We're planning on going regularly and joining a young couples Sunday school class! I know its what God wants me to do, and I love knowing I'm doing something right for him. Maybe one day I'll read the whole Bible and blog about it. You know, how I perceive certain passages and what I learn from them. I probably wont do that for a while though, at least until after I graduate.
Now, in case you're wondering why I made a scripture my "title" or what it even says (which I hope you are) I will now tell you :) My church has weekly scripture readings and this one was from last week, but when I read it, it really made me realize how we all need to change how we treat people!
9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other.
Love love love!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Another Good Day
I must say, Colby would be very proud of me if he were here, I just worked out! I've never met anyone who was into a healthy lifestyle as much as Colby, and I'm grateful for it for sure! I don't really need to lose weight, but I would love to tone up, and with Colby working out everyday it gives me the motivation I need. I already cook healthy so this is all I am lacking. If he is going to get back into great shape, I need to get into great shape too so we can be an even better lookin' couple! (Said in a joking manner, I'm really not that conceited).
I've been thinking alot about my future today. Not my marriage and family future, but my career future. One of the goals any person with a Psychology degree has is to get something published. A few months ago I wouldn't have cared if any research I did got published, but the more I think about it and learn about research (there is a class that devotes the whole semester to learning how to conduct research and become a critical thinker..never realized how much goes into research papers!) the more I desire to get something published. I believe the field I will go into is marriage and family studies and I hope to do my senior thesis on a correlation between having children at a young age and later success/happiness. I'm just afraid 1) there wont already be enough research to base my hypothesis on 2) the research wont be valuable to a persons understanding or 3) unnecessary duplication. I honestly don't even need to be worrying about this right now, because I don't have to turn in my research proposal until the end of April, I JUST WISH I KNEW!
I know for sure I want to be a therapist, but now I have a new interest-research! Sounds really boring, and it kind of is, but I love learning about the psyche. Maybe I can be a therapist, university professor, and do research on the side. Sounds like a plan to me. Now I just need there to be ten more hours added to each day to make this easy to accomplish. Maybe since the Earth's tilt shifted or whatever causing the astrological signs to change some brainiac will announce the hours in a day are different and everyone will believe him. Sarcasm intended.
I've been thinking alot about my future today. Not my marriage and family future, but my career future. One of the goals any person with a Psychology degree has is to get something published. A few months ago I wouldn't have cared if any research I did got published, but the more I think about it and learn about research (there is a class that devotes the whole semester to learning how to conduct research and become a critical thinker..never realized how much goes into research papers!) the more I desire to get something published. I believe the field I will go into is marriage and family studies and I hope to do my senior thesis on a correlation between having children at a young age and later success/happiness. I'm just afraid 1) there wont already be enough research to base my hypothesis on 2) the research wont be valuable to a persons understanding or 3) unnecessary duplication. I honestly don't even need to be worrying about this right now, because I don't have to turn in my research proposal until the end of April, I JUST WISH I KNEW!
I know for sure I want to be a therapist, but now I have a new interest-research! Sounds really boring, and it kind of is, but I love learning about the psyche. Maybe I can be a therapist, university professor, and do research on the side. Sounds like a plan to me. Now I just need there to be ten more hours added to each day to make this easy to accomplish. Maybe since the Earth's tilt shifted or whatever causing the astrological signs to change some brainiac will announce the hours in a day are different and everyone will believe him. Sarcasm intended.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Brand New
Well I don't know where to start, and I really don't even know how to mess with all of these options, but I've felt like I have wanted to blog for a while, so here I go.
I feel really good lately. Like God's spirit is in me helping me to become a better person. Of course I still have work to do and will never be perfect, but I honestly can feel Him working in me. Knowing that makes my days so much better. I think a big part of it is a book I've been reading about communication with your mate. It is Christian based and recites passages from the Bible, which I love! Just reading about God makes me feel more in tune with him. If you just take a second to think about how wonderful He is and everything He does, it really just blows you away. At least it does for me!
I assume most of you know me if you're reading this, which means you know I'm engaged! And the best thing happened yesterday, we put a deposit down on the Church! Which means we FOR SURE have a date and place! The only thing we need to book is a place for the reception and the DJ! Annnnnd also all of the other tiny details that no one really cares about but me!
Note: If anyone would like to play the piano at our wedding for free, let me know :)
Today my POS car decided to stop working. It will start, but just about everything else crapped out. Stupid Saturn L200. No wonder Saturn went out of business! We're getting it to the shop tomorrow (hopefully) to get fixed (hopefully) and if its decided to not work then goodbye Saturn and hello Ford Edge! (I wish!) Seriously though, I hope its fixable because I don't know where I would get the money for a new car!
Well I thought I would have a hard time thinking of things to write about, but now that I'm started I think I could go on and on! However, Colby is done with his workout so I need to go cook dinner. Tonight is Tilapia with a Spicy Pineapple glaze! I am also quite the chef, if I do say so myself.
Goodnight everyone!
I feel really good lately. Like God's spirit is in me helping me to become a better person. Of course I still have work to do and will never be perfect, but I honestly can feel Him working in me. Knowing that makes my days so much better. I think a big part of it is a book I've been reading about communication with your mate. It is Christian based and recites passages from the Bible, which I love! Just reading about God makes me feel more in tune with him. If you just take a second to think about how wonderful He is and everything He does, it really just blows you away. At least it does for me!
I assume most of you know me if you're reading this, which means you know I'm engaged! And the best thing happened yesterday, we put a deposit down on the Church! Which means we FOR SURE have a date and place! The only thing we need to book is a place for the reception and the DJ! Annnnnd also all of the other tiny details that no one really cares about but me!
Note: If anyone would like to play the piano at our wedding for free, let me know :)
Today my POS car decided to stop working. It will start, but just about everything else crapped out. Stupid Saturn L200. No wonder Saturn went out of business! We're getting it to the shop tomorrow (hopefully) to get fixed (hopefully) and if its decided to not work then goodbye Saturn and hello Ford Edge! (I wish!) Seriously though, I hope its fixable because I don't know where I would get the money for a new car!
Well I thought I would have a hard time thinking of things to write about, but now that I'm started I think I could go on and on! However, Colby is done with his workout so I need to go cook dinner. Tonight is Tilapia with a Spicy Pineapple glaze! I am also quite the chef, if I do say so myself.
Goodnight everyone!
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