For Better or For Worse

"Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but through being the right mate."

-Barnett R. Brickner

As Excited as I am to get married, I'm not going to lie, I'm also scared as hell. Even though I already live with Colby, getting married is going to be such a big transaction. I'm not scared because I think I'm making the wrong decision (which I'm not), I'm scared because there are SO many marriages that fail. I'm talking about people I do know, and people I don't. I wonder if people actually think about their vows before and even after they say them. FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE. Think about it. You are not only making a promise to your spouse, but to God as well. That is a big, BIG commitment. Its scary because in making these vows, you know there is going to be a "better" as well as a "worse". You are going into marriage knowing there will be some really bad, rough, horrible times. And yet you vow to stay with them, which is how it should be, but I can imagine how hard it must be. So many people just give up, surrender, and get out of the situation. How awful, and how heartbreaking! I'm not scared Colby and I will get a divorce one day, I'm scared for the rough times that are ahead. Laying in bed last night I was thinking of the traditional vows and it was the first time I actually fully comprehended what they were saying. We plan on writing our own vows anyway, but it still really made me think. I am going in to this scared for the "worse" times, but really excited about the "better". If that makes sense. It does to me, and thats really all that matters.

Devon

Making This For Me

I think part of the reason I don't blog as much as I used to (even though that wasn't very much to begin with) is because I would usually post the link on facebook, which isn't bad at all, except I think when I do that I also filter my thought. As if I was writing to please other people than myself. So maybe every now and then I will post the link on facebook if I feel I wont be judged or offend anyone, but other than that I will mostly write for my own benefit, and if you follow me then great, I suppose I will write for you too.

School starts next week and I can't decide if I am excited about it or sad about it. Of course I'm sad summer is over, but I also have more to be sad about. When I am finished with this semester I will graduate, which is awesome, but it also means that (duh!) I am being pushed into the real world. Yes it is a part of life, with many open doors and opportunities, but it is also a lot of goodbyes. Goodbye to summer vacations, sleeping in, seeing friends on weekends (when we move) and so much more. Pretty much, goodbye to being.. for the most part, carefree. BUT, it is also a very exciting time. Because after I graduate I get married! Which you all know, so I wont write about that today. It is also exciting because it means I accomplished something that I have wanted for as long as I can remember, and that I have worked on for four and a half years! I wont have to wait tables if I don't want to anymore (but I probably will while I'm in grad school, just because it will be easier to go to school and work that way)! Getting my bachelors is just the first step though, I still have many hurdles to jump over. Does that analogy make sense? It does to me.

This has been a very relaxed summer, I didn't go on many trips, but I did go on one good one, to Cozumel! I'll post pictures in another blog when we get the ones from snorkeling developed.

Thats it for now, I have more to write about, believe it or not, but I will wait until next time when I tell you another future goal for myself: to write a book.

Devon